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why do i cry

when you say

something nice?

why?

 

why

do

i

cry

…when you 

touch

softly 

my face?

 

why

do

i

cry?

when i 

succumb…

…to your

gentle 

embrace?

 

why?

why?

why?

 

why

do

i

cry

…when you 

open

my lace?

why?

 

why

do

i

cry

when 

you tell me

…how pretty 

i taste?

 

why?

 

why

do

i

cry?

when you make me feel

so, so, so 

intense,

yet… 

so…

so…

so… 

utterly 

chaste?

why?

why?

why?

 

why

do

i

cry

when our joy

is 

no longer in haste?

 

why

do

i

cry

when i should feel…

nothing but love?

 

why

do

i

cry?

when i know

(at least i think i know)

your aim is true?

why?

why?

why?

 

why

do

i

cry?

 

why

do

i

cry

when you whisper:

“i love you. i do.”

why

do

i

cry?

 

why?

you ask, “why?”

 

why?

why?

…why?

 

…are you blind?

i told you my secrets

i told you my lies

i told you my loves

i told you my lives

i told you my habits

i told you my hates

i told you

i told you

I told you

…i’ll tell you

 

…i’ll tell you, again?

 

why

do

i

cry?

 

come on!

i can’t

 

i can’t

tell you

…i told you

and

you refuse to hear.

…you want what you see

and you want to come near

that’s why

you want to be part of something

something you fear

why?

you ask, “why?”

 

why

do

i

cry?

why?

you want me to lie?

you think you know me?

 

you think?

you think you really do?

but, no. 

no.

no.

…if you knew me,

…if you… 

if you really, really knew me

…you’d know

…you would understand why

so…

why

do

i

cry?

 

try.

try.

try…

try for a moment

…a fragment in time

be inside.

be 

inside me

my head

…my brain

…my sinew

…my bones

my pain

and

my veins

 

in a nanosecond, 

you’d know

and…

…you wouldn’t cry

…you

would

shriek

…you

would

scream…

 

you would run flailing

into the street.



why

do

i

cry?

 

why?

 

why do you ask

…if you think

you know why?

 

why

do

i

cry?

 

why?

 

i wish

i

knew

why.

 

why

do

i

cry?

 

sigh.



Wednesday, March 18, 2009 at 1:52am




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